feeling a little bit emo. i don't really wanna whine about it, but i'm really going through a difficult phase. i'm not fighting, i'm only struggling to keep alive.

over the past 22 years, i've not had a careful selection of friends, and i thought the past 2 years in army i've learnt to make wiser choices. however, i came to know about something very disturbing and i feel very hurt because of it. i don't know why, although it's just a joke.. i suppose there are some jokes i can't take really well and one of it is concerning my future.

it's sad that the brightest star is dimming out, i have the best results, but i'm on the verge of getting axed. i only have 5 weak flights, and 3 of them came from my 3 attempts on tests. what's happening?

i felt really touched cuz coach called, and it was nothing particular, just wanted to know how am i doing at the moment. i feel that i've really let him down because he cares so much about us up to the stage that even in his holidays, i've caused him to worry. he's really like my dad in france.

many things are like chewing gum. fresh and nice at the start, and after some time, tasteless and tiring. yet, after chewing for so long, u dont know what you'll do without it.